C43 Ruthlessness and self-mutilation

That night I went into the bathroom and got a knife.

Looking at the hot water spewing out, my heart was surprisingly calm. I was no longer a coward. Although I had told myself this before, in the end, I would still be timid at crucial moments.

I really don't want to be like this anymore. If you don't want to be a coward, then you have to have a 'heartless' heart, a ruthless heart to everything