C15 Misunderstanding
"Little Qiu, this won't do. Let go of your sister, I'm your sister …!" Panic flashed in her eyes. She pushed my chest with her hands and tried to push me away, but my mind was muddled. It was as if my brain had broken. She completely ignored Qin Yulian's resistance.
In that instant, like a flame that has been suppressed for a long time, my entire body started to burn. I knew that this was an evil thought that I had been hiding in my heart all along, and it had broken out because of a specific point in my heart. At this moment, I didn't know what I was doing.
"Let me go …!" Tears flowed down her face as she cried out sorrowfully. This sadness made my heart feel as if it had been hammered by a hammer, and as I looked at the scene in front of me, I felt as if she had accepted her fate and closed her eyes. The only thing I could see were the tears flowing down from the corners of her eyes.
I stopped what I was doing and slapped myself hard. At this moment, I asked myself, if I really took away Qin Yulin's body this way, then what was the difference between Li Daniu and the people in the village who wanted to bully Qin Yulian?
[I have been protecting Qin Yulian for so many years. Is it for her own use?
Perhaps it was because she heard me fanning myself, but Qin Yulong opened her eyes and stared at me. Suddenly, she looked at me crazily, tore off her own clothes and shouted with red eyes, "Don't you want my body? I'll give it to you, I'll give it to you … "
But now that it has really happened, I'm scared, because this isn't what I imagined it to be. At this moment, Qin Yulong seemed to be willing, but she was shouting at me, and I didn't care about enjoying anything as I pushed her away and retreated, dipping my head into a water jar at the side. This is the water in the well that just came in, it was so cold that it was bone-piercing, as if the evil thoughts in my heart were frozen, I finally understood what was called a worm, but it was too late.
"Hehe …!" Qin Yulian laughed bitterly, "You are the same as them. You only want to harm me …" It's all the same! "
Qin Yulian laughed and cried at the same time. I was worried and said guiltily, "Sis, I …" I'm sorry! You, why don't you hit me! "
I immediately ran over and grabbed Qin Yullian's hand to let her hit me, but she withdrew her hand and sneered. "Come on, Jiang Zhe, don't continue acting. Is it that interesting?" "Rise!"
"Sis, I …!"
After pushing me away, she turned around to leave. Of course, I couldn't let her leave just like that, or else it would really be all over. Not only would I not be able to become her man, I wouldn't even be able to become her younger brother.
I hugged Qin Yulian and shouted, "Sis, I was impulsive. Can you listen to my explanation? Sis …"
"I'm regretting it again, do you want my body now!?" "It's okay, come on!" Qin Yulian looked expressionless and was about to take off her clothes again. I grabbed onto her hand and said, "Sis, can you not ruin yourself like this? If you are angry with me, you can hit me and scold me. What are you doing like this? "
"I didn't ruin myself. I'll let you ruin me, okay? Didn't you always think of that? Isn't it good for you that I've helped you? " Qin Yulian looked at me with a cold smile. It was like my heart was being pricked by needles. I said in a deep voice, "Sis, are you that unhappy with me? Am I that bad to you?" "I know you like brother-in-law, but he's already dead. He's been dead for ten years, could it be that in your heart, I can't even compare to a dead person?"
I was angry too, I blurted out, looking at Qin Yulian with burning eyes. When Qin Yulian heard me, she was stunned for a moment, and her eyes widened as well, and after a while, she bellowed, "Yes, I can't forget him! Compared to him, you can't even compare. Don't forget, if I didn't give you food to eat, you would have starved to death already! "You're not as good as him, you're not as good as him …!" Qin Yulian was shouting. At this moment, her face looked ferocious. It was obvious that she was enraged to the extreme. I have never seen such a thing. After saying these words, Qin Yulian left.
Every word she said was like a heavy hammer hitting my head. For a moment, I was in a daze, my thoughts in a mess. I didn't stop her when she left.
After a long while, I let out a bitter sigh. "Jiang Zai, you're just a fool. You think too much!"
At this moment, my mind was in a mess. Qin Yullian's words, which could not even compare to a single strand of his hair, kept echoing in my mind. I smiled bitterly and laid down quietly on the brick bed.
The next morning, I got up from the brick bed and made breakfast as usual. I knew that Qin Yuren must have stayed up all night as well. I made some millet porridge, pickled vegetables, and two plates of steamed buns.
I want to have a good talk with Qin Yulian.
When I arrived at Qin Yulian's house, she hadn't slept at all. Her clothes were still the same clothes as yesterday, and right now, Qin Yulian was hugging her knees with her hair in a mess. Her eyes had dark circles under them.
She saw that I had arrived, but didn't speak to me. I took out a small square table and took out a plate, chopsticks, pickled vegetables, millet porridge and buns and filled them up with plates and bowls. With a smile, I said, "Sis, have breakfast!"
Qin Yulian's eyes moved slightly as she glanced at me but she didn't move. I was feeling very uncomfortable, but I pretended that nothing had happened and smiled. "Sis, let's talk! As we ate, we talked about what kind of relationship we should have in the future, how about that? Because, I don't want to lose your sister, who has been the best to me for the past ten years, because of a momentary mistake! "
I looked at Qin Yulian with burning eyes. Qin Yulian looked at me again, thought for a moment, then came to the table and picked up the bowl. I smiled and handed the chopsticks to her, but Qin Yulian was panicking and almost knocked over the bowl of porridge.
My hand froze in an instant, and my expression became marvelous. "Sis, are you afraid of me?" I smiled bitterly. However, I still handed the chopsticks to Qin Yuren at the same time as I said that. She looked at me and lowered her head to eat. She didn't even look at me.
I sighed. "Sis, I thought about it last night. I was too impulsive yesterday. I'm sorry!" You shouldn't have hurt your heart like that! Furthermore, I guarantee that I will only treat you as an older sister and won't have any presumptuous thoughts about you anymore.
I sincerely looked at Qin Yuran. When I said those words, I couldn't quite put my finger on them, there was reluctance, sadness, and even a trace of relief. My train of thought was getting clearer and clearer, and my words were getting clearer and clearer, "It was my wishful thinking, thinking that I could get a step closer to you, but it was only yesterday that I realized that I had no chance at all! Therefore, I am willing to give up. You will still be my big sister in the future, and I will only be your little brother.
"Trick...!" Initially, she really hoped that I could understand what I meant, but after hearing what I said, she suddenly felt like crying. She was extremely sad, and at this moment, it was as if she didn't have a single bit of anger left in her heart. She threw herself into my embrace and started crying. Eat something and get some sleep! When I woke up again, it was all over! "
"I …!" The heart-wrenching feeling made her more and more sad. Faintly, she felt that she had lost something precious, and she kept going into my embrace, trying to find the feeling of safety that she felt before. But what made her terrified was that she couldn't find that feeling.
"Trick...!" Qin Yulian started to cry like the rain. She looked at me in a daze.
"Alright, Sis. You're already such a grown-up, and you still keep on crying. Don't make me laugh!" I forced a laugh and wiped away the tears at the corner of Qin Yulian's eyes. "Alright, Sis. You might be sad to be here. How about this? I'm leaving now. Calm down first!"
I like Qin Yulian very much, but I can't let my love hurt the feelings between us for ten years. This is kinship, I am an orphan, I would rather not have this love, so I want to keep this kinship.
I turned around and walked away quickly because I was afraid I would regret it if I walked too slowly.
"Traitor...!" Sister has also thought about it, wuu …! " Qin Yulian looked at my figure disappearing into the distance. She leaned on the table and started to cry.