C87 Final Decision
I kept looking at the card on the table, not blinking, until at last the light was so bright that my nose ached and my head hurt so badly at this moment that I blinked and tears came out of my eyes.
Yes, I couldn't make up my mind, but dignity forced me not to refuse, and for a moment I didn't know what to do.
However, there are often people who know me better than I do myself