C12 He Fell into a Gray State

In the morning, a cool breeze blew. A figure was standing quietly in a corner of the mountain, thinking about something.

Today was the fourth day since Xiaoyue disappeared. Guxing knew that Xiaoyue was really angry this time, for her own incompetence and for her own lack of progress.

After being with her for so long, this was the first time he had seen her so disappointed. He didn't even want to take another look at himself.

Guxing stood rooted to the ground. He had long gotten used to the days with Xiaoyue by his side. But now. . .

He had never been so afraid of something. Xiao Yue's departure had terrified him.

"Is it time to return to the time of one person? Actually, it's pretty good. No one cares. No one asks. . . "

He tried to say something to prove that he didn't really care, but his red eyes betrayed him.

He suddenly wanted to see Xiao Yue more than ever, even if he would be beaten and scolded by her, as long as she could come back, he was willing.

From the initial coldness to the stunning feeling and the final reliance, his feelings for her seemed to be changing step by step. Guxing didn't know what this feeling would become in the end, but no matter what, it made him look forward to it. But now. . .

She seemed to have left, without a sound, without even saying goodbye.

Because of this, his anticipation was about to be nipped here, gradually losing his life force.

"Only now, I am very disappointed in you. "

No one knew when, but these words had been lingering in Guxing's mind, causing him to feel extremely regretful.

He went crazy and searched all the places that Xiao Yue might have gone. He was like a devout believer, praying that he could see Xiao Yue's figure in a second, but Xiao Yue disappeared without a trace, as if she had never appeared.

"So everything was just a false dream. "

Guxing murmured and suddenly became hysterical.

"I knew it. How could someone like me treat me well? It turns out that it was all fake. Haha. Wuwuwu. . . "

In the end, he still cried. He had once swore in front of his grandfather that he would never cry again. At this moment, he was crying a complete mess. All along, he had been pretending to be strong. At the end of the day, he was still a child. No matter how mature he was, no matter how extraordinary he was.

Thinking back to the bits and pieces of the past few months, he had a vague feeling that it wasn't real.

He raised his head and looked at the sky. His eyes were filled with gray. He could not help but smile. "Since you gave me hope, why did you make me despair? Am I not good enough for you?"

Waiting made him gradually lose his mind. His heart was just like the weather, becoming extremely gloomy.

The rain started on the second day after Xiao Yue left. It rained for two days in a row, making the mountain seem like a thin mist, making it hard to see clearly.

He just stood there in the rain, not moving at all. He wanted to wait for Xiao Yue to come back and then personally say to her: "I'm sorry!"

However, he seemed to be unable to wait any longer. Xiaoyue had already left and would never come back.

He stood there, allowing the rain to rain on his body. The rain soaked his entire body, but he could not feel it.

This feeling of despair. He had only felt it once when the old man left. It turned out that in his heart, Ms Yue had already occupied such a huge position.

Humans were not creatures worthy of sympathy. Only when one lost them would one know how to cherish them.

He did not want to think about it any longer. He vaguely felt that his body was becoming colder and colder. Even his smile froze on his face. There was only coldness.

"Is this the time again? If grandpa sees this, he will be scolded again. He really wants me to live, but why am I always disappointing him?"

Forget it, I don't care anymore. It's good that it ends just like that. I don't need to think about the answer anymore. I don't need to think about getting stronger. That's all. It ended without any worries.

When he thought of this, Guxing couldn't hold on any longer. He fell to the ground.

The moment he fell, he seemed to see a familiar figure rushing towards him at high speed. It seemed like it wanted to catch him, but it passed through his body.

"Hehe, is it an illusion?" He laughed self-deprecatingly, because the figure looked like a person.

"Bastard!"

It was precisely Xiao Yue. She had disappeared for a few days because of Guxing's disappointing performance, but she wanted to let Guxing understand. Cultivation was a matter of one person. One could never rely on others, including Tao Realm and herself. However, she had never thought that Guxing would be so persistent as to wait for her in the rain for three days.

"Are you stupid?!"

She felt guilty and uneasy. She tried to hug the young man in front of her with her arms, but she couldn't do it. She had never felt so helpless before, and she panicked while lying beside Guxing.

She kept calling Guxing's name, hysterically.

Finally, Guxing slightly opened his eyes, but his eyes were dim. "Ms Yue, is that you?"

Hearing Guxing's words, she was like a drowning person grabbing onto her last life-saving straw. She was very excited. "It's me, it's me. I'm back!"

"It's really you, you're really willing to come back. "

Guxing's eyes became more spirited, but his face was still weak.

Xiao Yue nodded with tears in her eyes, and then she used her hands to touch Guxing's face, not giving up. When she saw Guxing's haggard face, she couldn't help but tremble. "I'm back, I'm back. I won't leave anymore. I won't scold you anymore. Don't sleep, alright?"

However, Guxing seemed to not hear it. He opened his eyes and quickly closed them again. "Ms Yue, I was wrong. Don't leave. . . "

"You were right. It was my fault. Don't sleep. I will promise you anything!"

Xiao Yue's voice carried a sobbing tone, it was a bit hoarse and unclear in the rain.

However, this time Guxing did not speak. He closed his eyes and lay on the ground as if he was sleeping. The rain kept hitting his face, and he did not notice it.

Until. . .

"Ms Yue, I'm sorry. I'm so sleepy. Let me sleep for a while. Just for a while. . . "

Guxing's breath became weaker and weaker. His muttering apology made Xiaoyue cry uncontrollably. The guilt brought by guilt was like a huge rock pressing down on her heart. She blamed herself. If it wasn't for her willfulness, Guxing wouldn't have become like this. He was still just a child! She swore that as long as the youth woke up, she would be willing to pay any price.

Unfortunately, everything was in vain. Guxing's eyes did not open again, and she could only watch helplessly from the side.

The rain continued to fall, and it fell on Guxing's body through her body. Xiao Yue hated the rain more than ever. She couldn't even use her body to defend Guxing from any harm. She hated herself even more, as she didn't even have the chance to atone for her crimes.

Until she couldn't make any more sound from crying, she couldn't remember how to ride her sword.

The sword lost control and fell from the sky to the ground. It was still buzzing, as if it was crying for its master.

Xiao Yue looked at Guxing who was lying on the ground in a daze. Suddenly, this scene coincided with another scene in her mind.

In the scene, a woman in armor was sitting on the ground like her, but her eyes were staring at something.

"Who is she. . . "

Xiao Yue tried to control her consciousness, trying to see the woman's face, but she couldn't see it clearly. She could only follow the woman's gaze and saw a figure lying on the ground, the figure's appearance. . .

"Ah. . . Ah. . . My head. . . . It hurts. . . "

Suddenly, she felt an inexplicable heart-piercing pain in her head. It was so tight that it felt like it was going to explode. It was as if something was churning and wanting to come out of her mind.

This made her feel even more unbearable pain. She half-knelt on the ground, her expression ferocious and terrifying.

. . .

Guxing felt as if he had fallen into a boundless darkness. There was no light around him. It was terrifyingly silent.

He wasn't unfamiliar with this feeling, it was a kind of extreme loneliness. The reason why he was familiar with this feeling was because he had never lacked loneliness since he was young.

Was this the feeling of death?

Guxing sneered. If death was just like this, then it was nothing.

"When I was alive, I was alone. Now that I'm dead, there's still no one around me. Haha. . . "

Thinking about how he was born all alone and now that he died all alone, it truly symbolized his destiny.

He roared with laughter, yet it was an indescribable melancholy.

At this moment, there was also a voice in his heart that kept calling out to him. "Stay here. This place belongs to you alone. No one will force you and no one will despise you anymore. Stay here and stay forever. "

The voice seemed to carry a type of demonic nature that made one unable to reject it.

"Yeah, this is my world alone, mine alone. . . "

He repeated this sentence, his mind was gradually being devoured by something.

At the same time, he felt that he was continuously falling into the abyss, as if a long time had passed, until his consciousness was blurred.

In his memory, he seemed to have seen his grandfather standing in the distance, smiling at the youth.

"Grandfather!"

"Grandfather!"

He shouted desperately, but the old man's figure was getting further and further away. He tried his best to chase after him, but found that he could not catch up no matter what.

"Stay here, in this world, there's everything you want" That voice was faintly discernible, as if it had traveled from ancient times to this world. It was intoxicating.

"Stay, I want to stay. . . "

Finally, Guxing lost his consciousness. In a daze, he saw that the old man had arrived in front of him and was smiling amiably.

"Child, come with me. Let's go to a place where no one can find us and live a good life. "

"It's grandfather. . . "

Guxing handed his hand to the old man. He smiled foolishly. At that moment, he suddenly saw a vermillion door slowly appear behind the old man. Behind the door, there were two figures whose appearances could not be seen clearly.

In the midst of hiding, Guxing could see that the two figures seemed to be a man and a woman, standing there. They waved at him kindly outside the door.

"Child, come here, come here. Hehe. . . Hehe. . . "

The laughter was as clear and melodious as a silver bell, causing him to instantly forget everything. Subconsciously, he walked towards the door.

One step.

Two steps. . .