C283 Unfriendly approach

When I think about these things, my thoughts can't calm down. There are some things that I can't seem to grasp, but I can't think of anything at all, as if all of this is an invisible net that encloses us, and behind it a person, or a pair of large hands, is manipulating the web.

I was like one of the fishes in this big net, wanting to go back to heaven but unable to