C10 There Are Bad People in the Crowd

After a while, Faang Yuan and I went downstairs together. He got into the company's business car. I sat in Yem Yan's car.

My nerves were in an inexplicable pain. I even complained in my heart that Faang Yuan shouldn't have told me so suddenly that Jian Wei would come back. After three years, I don't know what kind of emotions I should have used to face her.

I wanted to see her crazily day and night, but I was afraid to see her... I was afraid that the silence and awkwardness after meeting her would be too painful.

Yem Yan starts the car and looks at the rear-view mirror as the lane changes. She asks me, "Zhao Yang, why do you look like you have a lot on your mind?" After asking, she shook her head and added,... "I don't really look like you!"

I smiled and said, "Do you have to be heartless to be like me?"

"Did Faang Yuan tell you that Jian Wei would come back?"

"Yes." I answered, but opened the window and lit a cigarette.

"No wonder. Other than Jian Wei, no one else in this world can pry your melancholic mind!" Yem Yan sighed.

"You think too much. She is not that invincible. I am also not that vulnerable." I still smiled in response.

Yem Yan shrugged and said, "Zhao Yang, the more you smile, the more pain you feel in your heart."

"You speak as though you understand me better." This time, I finally put away the smile that Yem Yan thought was a disguise to prove that I am not as painful as she said.

"We have been friends for so many years, I do not know who knows you... Zhao Yang, let me tell you the truth, although we all feel sorry for you and Jian Wei. But... I have to tell you, when a woman changes her heart, the man that she once loved. He became a second-hand cigarette that had been smoked. He could no longer feel the pleasure. She even smoked until her eyes turn red. At this time, the only thing she can do is to abandon this second-hand cigarette. Do you understand what I mean?"

" Why are you telling me all this? " I took a deep breath and asked.

"I hope you'll be more cool."

I was silent for a long time and asked unwillingly: "What do you think love is? ... Isn't it just a promise, and then a lifetime of persistence! Why did you give the other party a promise, but you don't have the courage to persist?"

"Zhao Yang, love is really not as simple as you think. Why can Faang Yuan and I walk to the end, but you and Jian Wei can't. You should understand."

I fell silent again. I did indeed understand, Faang Yuan and Yem Yan. Although they are not wealthy families, their families are not bad either. It can be said that the families are compatible, but Jian Wei and I... I clearly remember that before Jian Wei left the country, her father bought a Cedric CTS for her. As a graduation gift for her... but does love really have to be measured by matter? I don't really understand!

Yem Yan said again, "Jian Wei really loved you. You also know that she went to study in America to avoid her parents forcing her to marry. I hope that after three years, her parents will be able to accept the fact that she is with you when we return to the country. But why did she propose to break up with you after coming to America? I also don't understand... Maybe it is really because..."

I don't want to repeat the feeling when we broke up. I interrupted Yem Yan, "Stop. Just like what you said, when she changes her heart, she will treat me as a second-hand cigarette that I can't enjoy."

" I said that her change of heart is just an analogy... "Yem Yan comforted again.

There was a kind of person in this world who had a special ability that could comfort a person who wanted to die to death. Without a doubt, Yem Yan was the one.

...

During the entire day, I accompanied Yem Yan to buy the related items that they need to use in their marriage according to the list that Faang Yuan gave me. It was only at dusk that I ate some simple things with Yem Yan and dispersed.

Even though I didn't sleep the entire night yesterday, I did another day of hard labor today. However, when the night was about to arrive, I didn't feel the slightest bit of sleepiness. As I walked on the streets, every time I saw a couple snuggling against each other under the neon lights, my heart was filled with endless loneliness and emptiness.

I still want to let go of myself as usual, as if my night belongs to a nightclub. I tell myself: Maybe I'll drink some wine and sleep more peacefully tonight.

Listening to the explosive bar music and looking at the flickering lights, crazy! People twisting their waists, not long after, I've already finished a few bottles of beer... I also feel a bit dizzy, I like this feeling... There were no worries, no love, no hatred, only a hazy and illusory feeling that was both real and fake.

There are two bands in this bar. The two bands take turns to perform every night. Today, it just so happens that Luo Ben's "Ripping Mind" band is singing. I have a good relationship with Luo Ben, and sometimes we play music together.

Luo Ben stuck his finger on the guitar's string and made a noise that sounded like friction. He teased me and said, "Zhao Yang, come up and play...?"

I put down the beer bottle and jumped onto the stage. I took the guitar from Luo Ben and said to the other members of the band, "Come and play the song, Yang."

Everyone nodded and all kinds of musical instruments started to sound. Under the flashing lights, the heavy metal music started to expand.

With a drunken venting, I stepped on the ammunition box shaped prop with one foot. I started to madly play the electric guitar, and with a roaring explosive sound, I started to sing. "With an empty hand, I pulled the flag, and my bones were hidden in my coat. I tried to recall the route I took when I was drunk. I turned around and smashed into the wall. [I can't come back.] [Oh, my God. You must be tired.] Mom, quickly give birth to me. Give birth... Raise your throat and open your neck..."

Halfway through the singing, a young man with long hair, wearing a black jacket and a gold chain, who looked like a gangster, glared at me and shouted," What the hell are you singing, you country bumpkin... Hurry up and change the song... "

I stopped and narrowed my eyes at him," Tell me again about your grandson. "

Long Hair kicked the drum closest to him. "You idiot, I'll let you change the song!"

"F * ck you..." I stood high up and kicked Long Hair's face. As if he had found a way to vent his emotions, he jumped down from the stage and smashed the guitar. In the blink of an eye, the guitar was smashed into pieces. Long Hair was also beaten until he hugged his head and curled up on the ground, screaming in pain.

The few people with Long Hair rushed towards me with beer bottles. They were blocked by Luo Ben and the band members. In the chaos, I saw that someone had called the police. Immediately, I threw away the remains of the guitar and ran out of the bar.

...

In the interrogation room of the police station, the lights were on me. Sitting opposite me was an old police officer. He looked rather friendly.

"Name, gender, age, working unit."

"No... Police officer, that grandson really deserves a beating. He was the one who kicked us to set up the drum first. You know we play music. The musical instrument is our biological brother. He hit my biological brother, can I live with him? Police brother, it's not that I want to fight. There are bad people in the crowd!! " I said with a sullen face.

"Don't talk nonsense, kid. No matter how many reasons you have, it's not right to fight. The law doesn't give you this right, understand?"

"Police brother, I know I was wrong. I have already deeply reflected and reflected in my heart. I shouldn't have ignored the dignity of the law. I will definitely raise my awareness in the future. As a law-abiding good citizen, I will definitely not drag down a harmonious society! "

"Enough, stop being a poor person!... Go and pay the fine."

"You're not going to be detained, right?" I carefully asked.

"The young man who was beaten up by you only suffered some superficial wounds. He agreed to keep it private. You have to compensate him for the hospital fees and the missed pay. Including the fine, it is a total of 6,000 yuan."

"6,000!!!... Police brother, I don't have that much money on me!"

"Call your family and friends."

Hearing the words' family and friends', I was suddenly confused. At this moment, I truly felt that I was this lonely in this city that I had lived in for two years.

I definitely can't find Faang Yuan or Yem Yan. They are getting married soon. I don't want to cause this trouble to them. Secondly, they have told me countless times that they want me to live a peaceful life, so it's better not to let them know about it. They are afraid that they will be disappointed!

...

After thinking for a long time, that face of extreme hatred for me, yet excessively beautiful, appeared in my mind.

Looking for Mi Cai. Yes, looking for Mi Cai! Anyway, in her eyes, I am a scum and have no image to speak of. Let her pay the fine for me first. When I get paid next week, I will return the money that I owe her previously.

At this time, I'm really glad that I remembered her phone number in the morning.

I took out my phone from my pocket, found Mi Cai's number, and dialed it.