C12 Requesting a Joint Rent

It's getting late, and the wine's sobering up. I'm zipping up my jacket. Light a cigarette, step on the neon light, I walked down the street in a daze, but my mind was filled with endless trivial thoughts. I suddenly got bored of my current life, what I want to do for my own life... But I don't know where to start, so I'm even more confused.

As he passed by a hotel, he saw the scattered lights from dozens of windows. On this night, some people were enjoying the warm room, and some people were walking on the streets, enduring the loneliness of the night.

But it was precisely because of this comparison that the world appeared so three-dimensional and real. I should understand that this world was originally a complex spear-shield body, and there would always be people who would bear the loneliness and loss. So I don't have to feel aggrieved, nor do I have to complain.

However, tonight's moonlight was so good that it illuminated those loneliness that had nowhere to run. Thus, I asked the immortals in the sky to turn off the power of the moon. I'm willing to bear the loneliness, but that doesn't mean that I'm willing to expose my loneliness to this world!

...

Returning to my residence, I habitually stood downstairs and looked around. I didn't see Mi Cai's car. I went around to the opposite side of the building and saw that the car was there. Mi Cai seemed to have gotten used to stopping the car here.

I squatted by the side of the car and smoked another cigarette before returning upstairs. After standing at the door of Mi Cai's room for a while, I knocked on her door.

"Mi Cai, are you asleep?" I asked in a low voice.

"Is something the matter?"

"I want to talk to you."

Mi Cai replied as I expected, "There is nothing to talk about between us."

"Let me thank you in person for what happened tonight. Thank you so much!"

"No need." Mi Cai still used three words to reject me.

"If you don't say it, I will feel bad!" As I said that, I didn't get Mi Cai's permission and used the excuse of thanking her to open her door.

The lights in the room were still on. Mi Cai sat at her desk, reading books, documents, and so on.

Mi Cai seemed to have gotten used to my rudeness and didn't react to my actions of entering the room without my permission.

I came behind her and glanced at her. "What are you reading?"

Mi Cai ignored me and her attention was still on the documents that she was looking at.

I just stood there and thought about how to tell Mi Cai that I intend to continue living here.

"Do you think it is appropriate to stand in a woman's room in the dead of night?" Mi Cai coldly asked me.

"I just want to say thank you. I have no other intentions." I hastily said.

"Then say it. After you say it, quickly go out."

"Oh..." I replied with a fawning tone, "Oh right, did you take your medicine tonight? I heard you coughing just now."

Mi Cai closed the document and frowned at me, "If you have something to say, say it quickly. I am ready to rest."

"You asked me to say it. I told you not to fall out with me." I quickly said.

"Then don't say anymore."

"That won't do. If you say it out loud, it will splash water. If you want me to say it, of course I want to say it... "After pondering for a while, I finally said," That... I'll tell you the truth. I don't want to move out at all! " After saying that, he subconsciously stood up and tried to use his mighty aura to suppress Mi Cai. She wanted her to agree to my request not to move out.

Mi Cai looked at me and said calmly, "I said that you can temporarily not return the money you owe, so you have no reason not to move out."

"I said that I don't want to move out at all. Don't you understand what I mean?" I raised my voice and said.

"But you promised me to move out more than once. Is your promise so cheap in your eyes?" Mi Cai's words were cold, but her eyes were filled with anger.

"What's wrong with letting me live here?" My words were also angry. When Mi Cai did not understand me, I also did not understand her. There are a lot of people renting in this city. Why am I so dependent on this house? She mercilessly chased me away time and time again. Furthermore, I feel that I have a very strong character when it comes to living together. I am a very safe living partner.

Mi Cai asked back, "What do you think is good about telling me?"

"Anywhere is good!" After thinking for a while, I said, "With me living here, if there are any conflicts in the neighborhood in the future, I can easily help you settle it. Let me tell you, I am the overlord of this district..."

"Don't be so childish, alright?" Mi Cai interrupted me.

I sneered, "You don't believe me, do you?... You can go to another district to take a look. Is it because there are square dancing aunties disturbing the people every night? Did you notice the neighborhood we live in? ... No, I haven't. Let me tell you: although there's no property management in this neighborhood, I'm much better than that property management."

" Even if what you say is true, it can't be a reason for you to continue living here, you have to move out " Mi Cai still firmly said to me.

I was furious once again. "Are you stupid? What's wrong with you letting me live here? At least the water pipe is blocked and the light is broken. I can fix it, right? If you're not at home, I'll help you pack your clothes, right? Another example is today, you're sick and I can't leave you to die. I have to buy you medicine and make you a bowl of ginger soup... Why do you have to be so stubborn to make both of them unhappy?"

" I'm not unhappy. "

Mi Cai's words made me choke. I awkwardly stayed silent for a long time before saying, "Anyway, I don't want to move. I owe you so much money. I feel that paying you back first is more important than moving."

Mi Cai asked unexpectedly, "Why do you think it is more important to pay you back first than to move?"

I said without thinking, "I will feel at ease after paying you back, but moving makes me feel like I have no one to rely on and is empty. If it were you, would you choose to pay me back first or move first?"

"If you move out from here, you can also go to other places to live. How can you say that you are empty and have no one to rely on?" Mi Cai continued to ask.

I looked at everything in the house, and an indescribable feeling arose in my heart. Mi Cai simply doesn't understand my feelings and feelings for this house, so every time she chased me out, she would not consider my feelings, but speaking of which, she didn't need to think about it. No matter how deep her feelings were, they were still mine.

I lit a cigarette to dispel the disappointment and helplessness in my heart.

"Can you stop smoking in my room?"

Mi Cai's words were filled with disgust, but it could not be blamed on her. It was because I was too presumptuous and neglected that she was still in her room.

"Sorry, I am going to the balcony to smoke." I said in a low voice.

...

After smoking a cigarette on the balcony, I returned to the living room. To my surprise, Mi Cai was not in her bedroom. Instead, she was sitting on the sofa in the living room.

For the first time, she took the initiative to say to me, "You haven't answered my question just now."

"You were just asking me why I felt empty and helpless when I moved out, right?"

Mi Cai nodded.

I sat down on the sofa opposite Mi Cai and closed my eyes. The countless days and nights I lived here appeared in my mind like fragments.

After a long period of silence, I finally opened my mouth and said, "I lived here two years ago, during the period when I first lived here. It was the darkest period of my life. I had insomnia almost every night... The reason why I had insomnia was because I had many thoughts, but these thoughts could not be told to anyone. But being stifled in my heart made me feel uncomfortable, so I turned on the floor lamp in my room. A cabinet, a clock, or even a tow pole. I will treat them as my friends and tell them my thoughts of not being able to tell others. Although they never respond to me, they are very patient... No matter how long I tell them, they are very patient, so if they don't vomit, they can't. I am not that uncomfortable anymore, I am very grateful to them... Thank you for everything in this room, they are my reliance... They are my friends, so I don't want to leave. I love this room, although he is very simple... But it is the safest and warmest place in my world... !!! "

After I finished speaking, Mi Cai looked at me with a very complicated expression. I did not know what this complicated look meant at all. I just anxiously waited for her to let me continue living here.