C29 Elusion

Under Yem Yan's puzzled gaze, I said, "Don't look at me with your puzzled big eyes. Haven't you hurt Faang Yuan? Between couples, mutual harm is beneficial to the healthy development of relationships. Everyone here knows that I, Zhao Yang, have a strong character. "

After saying that, he complained to Mi Cai, "Don't mess around. If you hurt me, let's go home and flirt. These are all bad friends. Don't mix with them."

"Zhao Yang, you are really crazy. For the sake of your high and mighty image alone, you have degraded me and my people!" Xiang Chen said.

"I have always been good at doing things like this!"

This time Mi Cai took the initiative to reply, "Then I said that you have a bad character, right?"

"That's right!" Everyone agreed and then smiled knowingly. They raised their glasses and toasted again. The atmosphere finally became more lively.

I drank the remaining half bottle of beer in one gulp and felt slightly relieved in my heart. From the corner of my eye, I looked at Jian Wei. Ever since I entered the bar, she was even more silent than Mi Cai. She only spoke a few words to Xiang Chen occasionally.

Everyone continued to chat. Although I sat close to Mi Cai, I didn't dare to have any physical contact with her because I was afraid that she would fall out with me. Right now, I only hope to end this gathering peacefully. No matter what, I'm not willing to participate in it anymore. At this moment, I am the only one who knows the pain in my heart... I just want to stand behind Jian Wei and Xiang Chen and silently wish them happiness, not like now.

Accompanying the crowd and laughing and cursing against my conscience filled my heart with pain, but I can't escape.

Human! Putting on a mask that doesn't fit the size doesn't only hurt my face, but also my heart!

Luo Ben, who was in the distance, finally finished singing. He looked at me with the microphone and said, "Zhao Yang, come up and sing two songs for your friends to liven things up."

As soon as Luo Ben finished speaking, Jian Wei was the first to applaud. Faang Yuan, Xiang Chen, and the others also applauded and whistled. The atmosphere in the bar also rose.

I glanced at the crowd and nodded at Luo Ben. Then, I walked to the stage.

Luo Ben passed the guitar in his hand to me and took a bass from the band member, Wu, to cooperate with me. I took a deep breath and asked for Zheng Jun's elopement.

"I'll give you an elopement song. Guys." As I spoke, I strummed the guitar's string, and some fragmented scenes appeared in my mind when I closed my eyes.

"We offer our youth to the glorious city behind us, and pay the price for this beautiful dream. Leave love to the most sincere girl by my side, sing with me, wander with me, and hurt each other. It was only now that I suddenly understood that my dream was true love and freedom. I want to take you with me and run to the furthest town.

I want to take you to the happiest person... Running away, running away, running away..."

In the sound of tearing, I improvised and sang three runs in a row. My emotions were completely released at this moment. Before Jian Wei left the country, we were forced into a corner and hid back to Suzhou from Shanghai. We wanted to run away from Suzhou to Tibet. At that time, we naively thought... With the courage in this song, we could run to the ends of the earth. We thought: A guitar, two people, running all the way is the happiest person. We even thought that running away would allow us to steal two people's lives from the real world...

Heavy metal music tore apart the desire, and all the noise in the secular world was drowned in this Elusion. I have never been so hysterical, wishing I could tear apart the world, tear apart the fabrication!

The sound of the music gradually stopped, and the applause began to rumble. I raised my head and returned the guitar to Luo Ben, who was beside me, for a long time. Then, without looking back, I walked towards the bathroom.

In the mirror of the bathroom, my face was filled with water stains. However, I was glad that I finally hid it from the world and successfully concealed the pain and the aggrieved tears.

Once, she was my belief in this Lustboy City. Now, my belief has ruthlessly collapsed, so those that have been hurt... Those who have been hurt, those who have been longing, are all suppressed in my heart. Finally, I can't bear the burden of being mutated in the time of a song, and it hurts my nerves.

...

Outside the bar, everyone said their goodbyes. The three of us men drank a little too much. Faang Yuan put his arm on Yem Yan's shoulder and walked towards their car first. Jian Wei supported the unconscious Xiang Chen. Only Mi Cai and I maintained an undetectable distance.

Jian Wei helped Xiang Chen into the car. When she thought that she was about to leave, she turned her head and walked towards Mi Cai and me.

She stood in front of Mi Cai and me but did not look at me. She said to Mi Cai, "Go back and give him a cup of milk brewed with honey. His stomach is not very good."

Mi Cai nodded her head. Jian Wei then looked at me who could not stand properly and nodded towards Mi Cai. Without saying anything else, she turned around and walked towards the car over there.

I stared at her back for a long time and could not come back to my senses!

"She has already left..." Mi Cai who was beside me said to me.

"Oh." I replied numbly.

"Where do you live? I'll send you back."

"No need, I'll take a taxi myself."

Mi Cai smiled and said, "I promised your ex-girlfriend that I would make you a cup of honey milk. I don't like to break my promise."

"Then let's go."

...

Mi Cai drove the car while I sat in the front passenger seat. I saw the lights and shadows of the car pressing down on the city shuttling back and forth between the tall buildings. I felt a little dizzy. I knew that the alcohol had gotten stronger.

After a long silence, Mi Cai finally asked me, "That song you sang just now was for your ex-girlfriend, right?"

"She... Her name is Jian Wei."

"Why? Don't you like people calling her your ex-girlfriend?"

I replied in a somewhat incoherent manner, "We have already separated... the two of us who have a clear relationship. Wouldn't it be better to call her by her name?"

Mi Cai smiled and said, "I'm afraid that your heart is not as clean as you say it is."

I did not reply and stared at Mi Cai for a long time before suddenly saying, "Hurry up, I feel like throwing up."

"Then get off the car and throw up."

"Go home and throw up. Drive faster." I urged again, and my words became fluent.

Mi Cai stepped on the brakes and the car instantly stopped. "Get off the car and throw up. Don't you feel uncomfortable holding it in? There is a river over there."

Although she was dizzy, it was not to the extent that she wanted to vomit. The reason why she said she wanted to vomit was because she did not want to talk about Jian Wei with her. However, the inertia of this emergency brake almost made the various kinds of wine that had accumulated in my stomach spray out. This woman seems to always be able to expose my lies and punish me.

I opened the car door and scrambled to the river bank before throwing up hysterically.

I was a little exhausted and lay flat on the ground in a triangle formation. Looking at the twinkling stars in the sky, I felt dizzy again.

Mi Cai came to my side and handed me a tissue. She said in a reproachful tone, "I let you drink that much more wine!"

"You didn't... step on that hard just now. That step on the brakes, I won't vomit at all." I still couldn't quite say it.

"Is that so? Then you were messing with me again just now?"

Only then did I realize that I didn't beat myself up to confess again, so I decided to play dead and lie on the ground without moving.

"You continue to pretend, I'll be leaving first."

I remembered that night when Mi Cai was thrown out in the wilderness, I grabbed her hand and said, "Don't leave..."

I held Mi Cai's hand tightly and refused to let go. I was afraid that I would fall into this deserted area.

Mi Cai was somewhat flustered. She struggled as she asked me to let go. I hugged her legs tightly as if I had found someone to rely on. I found solace and found the lost past.

"Zhao Yang, hurry up and let go. You drank too much. Don't go crazy with alcohol." Mi Cai sounded even more nervous. This kind of physical contact was too intimate for us.

"Let me hug you for a while. Don't go..." My voice was already choking.

"I am not Jian Wei. Zhao Yang, wake up!" Mi Cai pressed on my shoulders and struggled violently. Finally, she pushed me onto the ground and ran towards her own car.

Lying on the ground again, my world was dark. The cold wind of autumn blew me awake. After lying down for a while, she got up and walked towards Mi Cai's car. Mi Cai still had lingering fears. She firmly refused to let me sit in the front passenger seat and rushed me to the back.

The car started up again and drove towards the lights in front of me after I gradually woke up.