C85 Find a wife

When I see him like this, I know that all the spirit in him is gone, that he is now a sick patient struggling to make a final statement for himself, that I do not want to see this scene, that I am beginning to doubt my life, that I am beginning to pray for my loved ones, that I wish my father would be as hard as he was before, that he would be as hard on me as he was before, because we are not