C83 I am going to die

My head felt even more dizzy. I was scared to death, but I no longer had the courage to risk my life to fight for it. It was as though I had suddenly realized the value of life, and all I could think of was, "I don't want to die!"

But I know how terrifying enlightenment is. In this situation, not wanting to die is equivalent to being afraid of dying. If you're afraid of dying