C34 I don't want to leave you alone

I don't want to leave you alone

Watching the slim back disappear into the forest, I didn't say anything for a long time.

In fact, we had a very strange relationship all the way, which was that we were very close and inscrutable — at one moment it seemed very far away, very cold, and at the next it seemed not so far away, within reach.

In the midst of the rain forest, she and I quietly walked one after the other. As we walked further and further away, it suddenly felt as if there were only two people left in the world.

Me and her.

Unknowingly, she had already entered my heart, but I was also a little afraid, because she often showed indifference and alienation, which made me afraid to approach her, and didn't dare to be hurt by her.

On the other hand, I had an inexplicable sense of superiority. It was that I was a human being, a real, living human being, and she was not.

She was merely a snow robe left behind by Xue Rui's master, Chi-Li Nai.

She had not been born for long, not even a few months.

In this aspect, I actually have some psychological advantage. It's just like how I felt that if my uncle saw this little girl, he would be able to draw her along with his lollipop.

But I was wrong, I was wrong.

Along the way, I carefully avoided the topic, but every time I was struck, I found it, but I never thought that the question had already been answered in her mind.

She had actually long since realized the fact that she wasn't Chi-Li Nai.

What made me even more surprised was that, the reason why she was able to persevere all the way, was not for any other reason, but to survive, in order to give birth to a life even more wonderful than that of the Chi-Li Nai, without any regrets.

From this point, she was enough to make me admire her.

However, her blood is hot, so am I cold?

Recalling what she said to me just now, I immediately felt a wave of anger rush to my head. I wanted to walk up to her and shout at her loudly, "No, I'm not like this. If you want to go, I'll just go with you."

However... With my current state, even if I go, what can I do?

I felt a swelling pain in my head. I couldn't bear it any longer. At this moment, I saw that she had really left my sight without even turning her head back. I panicked. Without much thought, I immediately followed her.

I keep chasing, keep chasing.

My feet were sore from chasing her, and I felt as if I couldn't take a step, and I didn't see her again.

Finally, I stopped chasing and fell to the ground.

I covered my beating heart with 'putong, putong' and felt the sky spinning and the earth spinning. I felt faint, so I painfully closed my eyes. However, I felt as though my heart was missing a piece. It was empty.

I was in excruciating pain, but my mind began to replay the scenes between her and me …

When I first saw her, she was the aloof Master Sherry …

There was the gentleness she suddenly called me Eighteen …

There was the confession of two people on an outing …

There were two people who did not say a word. They walked in the forest, helping each other and keeping watch …

There was a scene of her and me asking and answering questions until she got tired and yawned and stopped …

All the images converged together, and it suddenly occurred to me that this magical girl had unwittingly entered my life. Although I had always consciously opposed her and didn't want to get too close to her, she had already entered my heart.

There was no reason to. If they entered, they wouldn't be able to make it in time.

I began to cry.

I forgot how long it had been since I had cried, especially for love, and when I had begun to get used to that damned society, to the girls who were no longer pure and lovely by the real world, to the show, to the love that I had turned my head away from, I had never cried again.

I had thought that I would no longer shed tears for any woman, but it was only now that I understood that it was only because those women had not entered my heart.

The more I cried, the more heartbroken I became. I couldn't help but clench my fists and smash them into the grass beside me.

I tried to offset the pain in my heart with the pain in my body.

In the end, however, it was useless.

After an unknown period of time, I suddenly stopped crying. I could smell another fragrance that was gradually becoming more familiar. This fragrance was very faint, as if it wasn't there, but it left a deep impression in my mind.

It comes from Chi Lishu's body. I feel like it's the fragrance of her body, but it also feels like the smell of her hair.

I wonder what shampoo she uses.

Subconsciously, I opened my eyes and saw a familiar oval face. She, who I thought had disappeared, suddenly appeared in front of me. With a surprised expression, I asked, "What are you doing? You're perfectly fine. Why are you crying like this?"

At first I thought I was thinking too much, that I was hallucinating. I closed my eyes, and when I opened them again, she was still there.

Eh?

Didn't you disappear? How did you appear in front of me? Furthermore, why is the corner of your mouth raised? Could it be that she didn't appear earlier, and was watching me as a joke?

When I thought of this, I immediately got up. I lowered my head, wiped my eyes with my sleeve, and said, "Aiya, my eyes have gone grey."

She said to me with a smile that wasn't a smile, "Do you want me to help you blow the dust?"

I immediately shook my head and said that there was no need. Tears streamed down my face, and there was nothing left. There was no need, everything was fine.

She stared at me. Are you sure you're okay?

I nodded.

Without another word, she turned and left, and I followed her closely. She walked a dozen paces, then turned and asked me, "What are you doing?"

I said I was walking, what's the matter?

She frowned and said, "Didn't you say you don't want to meddle in other people's business? Why did you come with me?"

I ignored her slightly complacent smile as I lowered my head and said in a muffled voice, "I didn't. Before we left, Xue Rui told Goddess Grandma that I must take good care of you. A promise is a promise that you have to fulfill no matter what. If I let you leave alone, what would happen? "

Hearing this, I felt her face turn into a smile, and she turned away, walking away on her own. What's the use of saying that you don't know anything?

I hesitated for a moment before replying, "Even if I don't know anything, you have enough body to block bullets."

At my self-deprecating words, she paused.

However, in the end, she did not say another word. Instead, she nodded her head and walked forward.

The two of them walked in silence while she continued to search for traces. She would move and stop, occasionally whispering to the bugs in the forest, as if she could communicate with these mind-boggling creatures.

We walked and stopped in the woods, and it seemed as if we had walked in circles, and I didn't understand at first, but later I realized that we weren't just looking for people.

For some time, we were being followed.

At the start, I was able to hold on, but in the end, even after using the methods in the 12 techniques, my legs became so tired that I couldn't even walk a single step. At this moment, she would come over, saying that I was a burden while at the same time helping me to massage my legs.

I don't know why, but after her pair of small hands kneaded my legs twice, I suddenly felt my fatigue lessen by a large amount.

It suddenly occurred to me that if we didn't have the money to travel north, I might be able to gather enough travel money, first class, to get this lady to hang up a foot bath and give people a tap on their feet.

Well, that's just what I thought.

I can't bear to let her touch my feet for a stranger.

After three days of this, she had finally, by means of her excellent arrangements, let them mistake us for having left, and gave up with great chagrin, turning east in the direction of the Thai-Burmese border.

We followed.

On the evening of the third day, we came to the depths of a valley, where the setting sun was so charming under the sunset. Beneath it, there were large fields of fertile land and many beautiful flowers, some red, some pink, some white, all bright and moving, as if they were the temptations of the devil.

I had never eaten pork or seen a pig run, and I knew that these flowers were nothing but poppies.

These fruits would only take two months to finish. When the fruits were ripe, they would turn brown, cut and boil. Through some processing, they would be able to form lump after lump of black paste.

Opium.

Is this really a drug lord's plantation?

My heart thumped in my chest, but with the lesson before, I didn't dare to reveal too much fear. I only pulled at the corner of Chi Lishu's clothes, saying that we should have arrived at a place with so many people and guns.

Hearing my calm words, she gave me a satisfied look and whispered, "I want to sneak in and see if there are still innocent people inside."

I asked. And then?

She said matter-of-factly, "Then save them."

She said it simply, but I felt a deep sense of helplessness, and she obviously noticed it as well. She patted my shoulder and whispered to me, "You stay here, I'll go scout and come back immediately."

As if she remembered something, she suddenly turned around and smiled sweetly at me, saying that you can rest assured that she won't leave you alone. If anything happens, I will definitely come back to discuss it with you … …