C118 Never calming down

After Chen Ming's indifferent reply to my rhetorical question, I actually didn't know what to say anymore.

After a long silence, I cleared my throat and said, "I just... "I hope that I can spend a bit more time with you. However, the more I hope, the more I feel that you will stay away from me. The more I feel that you will stay away from me, the more I want to catch up with you. However