C167 I want to fight

I want to give myself ten minutes, let myself hold the head crying, I am too painful, the pain is heart-wrenching!

I fiercely slapped myself in the face. I once told myself that I would let her be happy if I let go of her. Now that she was happy, why would I still feel pain?

I opened a pack of cigarettes that had already been sealed, opened the door, and ran away.

I ran like crazy